every night, when I put my head on to pillow, right before let my mouth stay open and make a zissssiiiizzz noise, I go trough the day over the important moments in my head.. I forgive my self for the stupid things I said or did.. I think about the results, if it is likely to effect someone, promise my self not to do again.. then I cheer myself up with the moments that I think I was cool, clever and pretty.. then the moments I was making someone happy, being good at what I do.. then I think about people I miss and what I can do for them.. I make plans to call, send something or write to some...
when I like myself enough, I turn to husband's face and check if he is still in love with me crazy.. after I am sure he is, ........................................ I finally sleep.. those steps swap sometimes.. and all takes just couple minutes if I am sure he loves me crazy.. if I have a little doubt, or if I can not forgive my self over something then the night starts.. untill Mr Sox let us know its 5 am.. then, that day, I'm telling you, you don't want to be around!
