pieces from dark side of the moon (february 2011)

i thought i knew what is better but i was wrong.. all my behave were about my self-anger which reflected to you to blame.. forgive me.. i am ruining everything around me.. no good at least for a simple plant.. cause i have no enough power to do anything or object .. that's why i wanna go to the furthest away maybe.. so i will.. but at first i need  you all to  forgive me.. i am the worst cause if i look i saw i realised and i cared but did not do anything but complaining..  here my punishment.. am still all alone like you cant imagine, chewing my soul like a tobacco till sedated my brain to sleep...

turkish mum academy awards... fırst lady of seventh sky

annem, birileri bulmuş buluşturmuş taaaa ordan.. la havle... neyse.. bi teyze aradı bugün..

--oya idi di mi adın?

--evet

--ben bilmemkim teyzenin tanıdığıyım?

ulan göbeğim çatladı neyse hatırladık...

--evet

--e annen merak etmiş seni

--evet onun işi o.. o merak eder..

--ben de dün döndüm türkiye’den.. biz 73’te geldik buraya.. bize bekliyorum bir gün mutlaka.. geleceksin ben de onlara haber vericem.. haber bekliyolar benden..

Artık kadıncağıza neler dendiyse orda, o da beni tehdit ediyo yani..

---tabi.. rahatsız ederim bi gün mutlaka..

neyse verdi adresi.

--dur olmadı oğlum burda. o sana mesaj atıcak..

--tamam

dedim ama sinir krizindeyim.. abi gelen mesajı imlasıyla falan aynen yazıyorum..

345 bilmemne street...... Nezaman istersen by numarayı arayın Ve seni alır getiririm, hic cekinme Ve sıkıntın olursa ara beni benim ismim haydar

ağladım lan gülmekten.......

annem sen teeee ankaradan buraya yetip beni darladı ya.. anne oskarımı isterim...

hayır bir yandan da olaydaki iyi niyet ve yardımseverlik de başka ama.. ben şimdi tanımadığım türk teyze ve amcalara misafirliğe gitmeye mi geldim buraya anneeeeee? Bunca yolu.. ya neyse off.. 

very honest self description

http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/25l8zF/animalpicture.ru/wp-content/uploads/2010/12/145.jpg

because its full moon..
they say i am a funny person.. i believe cause i am having fun..
 i talked to a bird in english.. not because i started to think in english.. just because i am a fool sometimes and i thought that was the language he/she can understand me :) but he did not :) i think he was some kind of in love with me.. all the blowing up, flirting singing stuff.. that bird was the only thing i like in that fucking Olivo rest in darling harbour..
today, i asked a friend that am i a bitch? answer was awesome: yes but we like you being bitch :)
i quit smoking.. i started smoking.. i quit smoking..
i just realized i cant eat coriander.. this is second thing i cant eat after parsley.. sad..
i can not ride when i am drunk.. i tried n failed..
recently someone asked how i create myself.. i couldnt say i write.. cause i was about to throwing up.. physically and mentally.. hangover in both..
nature is the most interesting thing on earth for me.. i can not understand as a concept the eternity..
 i like to talk about, nature, books, movies, music, people (yep i love gossips), ideas, crazy drunk n high stories..
i know some women (not many) more beautiful, more intelligent, more attractive.. but if its all about sex, you can find it anyway.. if its about being yourslef i am the unique like everyone and also unusual actually..

tarnation

Tarnation             
 worths to an hour n 31 minutes.. i still dont know what tarnation does mean.. but i like the movie..
here the trailer
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mLDQL23nutw